Insecurity........!!

 The one thing I've realized in the last couple of months is that we're all pretty insecure. Okay, maybe not all, but 90% of us are, whether we admit it or not. We just never stop comparing ourselves to others. We always think of what else we could've done instead of giving our best to what we are currently doing. I might be generalizing by writing we, when I actually mean me but I hope at least someone out there understands.
And I will admit, I have probably never been as insecure as I am now. And I've come to the conclusion that the two reasons behind it are - pride and money. I can understand! I spend 90% of my time planning, plotting, worrying and then not acting on those plans, wondering what every1 else is upto and whether I'll make it to the elite college TISS. I guess I just have to take a deep breath and enjoy what I have now and remind myself that I have to make it TISS and that it doesn't matter what I'm like 20 years down the line as long as I'm still me...That's it. I'm scared I've chosen a college going against my parents wish, which maybe a distance learning but I know within me that this will surely help to go through my destiny. But I always worried that  all this baseless and unfounded worries and insecurities will trap me again, but that's just how this stupid mind works.
When the f**k will we ever learn to be happy and content where we are? But I admit that fortune plays a important role in anybodys life,and I proudly says that this thing so called ‘FORTUNE’ have never been in my life.When we work hard for anything which we want it never gets.You know its all bullshit when the Bollywood so called King Khan says,
 "itni shiddat se maine tumhe paane ki koshish ki hai ki har zarre ne mujhe tumse milane ki koshish ki hai....kehte hai agar kisi cheez ko dil se chaaho toh poori kaynath tumhein usse milane ki koshish mein lag jaati hai...''

You know there is no ‘’kaynath’’ and  ‘’zarre’’ only ‘’koshish’’ which always falls prey to unfortunate things and I believe this the law of god who never bless with fortune.

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  1. sujit6 August 2011 at 22:58

    dont worry bro ...what happened if life is not giving you something that deserves to be yours.....the time will come when UR all 'koshish' will be payed....just be patient n be happy.

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